May 17th, 2011

icon, mandela, wolfmoon

Tonight's first class!

When life gives you lemons, you take those lemons, make lemonade and THROW IT BACK INTO LIFE’S EYES.

Recently I was in a discussion with a “friend” [now, demoted to “associate”] who couldn’t find a better time to kick me while I was down.
I have been freelancing for a while now, trying to make a small move into Studio job as opposed to self employment. Sadly, it has not been easy as a composition of problems arose:

1) I really don’t know how to socialize well in the industry. I don’t drink alcohol for medical reasons, and that puts a BIG damper on getting the next gig.

2) Clearly, my content and style isn’t big on demand… going on 500+ outright rejections and no bites. Freelancing is the kindest to me, yet planting myself in a studio isn’t. Something about my work that isn’t “studio quality” but “freelance” quality I suppose.

3) I have a hard time learning the new computer software’s, as they are ever changing and usually non traditional mediums.

While dealing with these, this so called “friend” decided to really have a go at me; passively aggressively teasing me about the fact that she “beat me” and “won” because she has a studio job and I didn’t.
Well, sad people are sad, and this obsessive competitive feud she has had since the days of Sheridan have been very one sided… I’m not into competing for a number of reasons that include very different styles [comparing apples to oranges], straining and stress in the workplace [honestly, hard enough to get the job done, why add another layer?], and lastly, I just don’t care. I want to focus on being productive- on bettering myself... so how does hating everyone else help this?

Even a broken clock is right twice a day, and she did ultimately have a point. So I figured… what am I going to do about it? Well, no sooner then looking for a solutions then I stumbled upon something that will help me with at least one of my problems; I’m starting an intensive 6 week course to learn Flash, and it does give me the option to continue to an advance course for action scripting.
During this time, I’ll also be finishing up stock for AC… I’m bringing awesome Deer skin medicine Bags, mini-drums, a full sized drum, Shields, my NorDesign pendants, T-shirts and more!

I admit, I’m looking forward to the course- first lesson is tonight. I have planned a small little animation with one character that I’ll be doing in Flash in order to test my knowledge that I am acquiring.

Exciting! XD